There's a bump!

My first maternity outfit! How exciting. You're finally starting to see a bump too. This morning I definatly felt the baby move. It was awesome! I've felt it a few times here and there for a couple weeks but wasn't sure if it was really the baby or just gas or some kind of flutter. Last night we used the doppler to hear the babies heartbeat and as soon as I put the doppler to my belly where the baby was I felt it move! It was incredible. I've noticed that if I am sitting down after I eat I can usually feel it. Yesterday I ate breakfast and then left the house to go to the mall and I felt it in the car. Same thing today. I left for work and was starving so I stopped to get a bagel and some chocolate milk and once I drank some of the milk I felt the baby move.
Christmas was incredible this year. We had the whole family here and I loved every stressful minute of it. Julie and Keith even drove up from NC and surprised us on Christmas day...well almost, my FIL ruined the surprise about an hour before they showed up, lol. It was still an amazing surprize and it was so awesome to have my whole family and Ian's whole family here together.
I hope everyone enjoyed there holiday and has a wonderful New Year! I'll be working of course, lol. New year's eve and New year's Day...lucky me I get to work every holiday until this baby is born! Have I mentioned how much I hate work lately? Well, it hasn't changed. Still hate it more and more everyday. Most days I wish that I hated the people I worked with because it would make it so easy to quit, but I like them and they work hard and put up with the same bullshit day after day so I feel obligated to suck it up and deal with it for them. Only a few short months left...

Stupid blogger! I wrote out this whole post with pic and everything and it's gone!! UGH!
I give up. Here's the pics.
16week belly shot.
Scott's basketball game
I still don't know how to use my camera!
Hope this posts... 

Doctor's Appointment

Today was our second Doctor's appointment. We had the first appointment of the day so I thought we'd be in and out quick, lol. Nothing in that office is quick. We waited in the waiting room for awhile but not nearly as long as we had to wait last time. It's not so bad though because our neighbor is the receptionist at the office so it gives us a chance to catch up with her a bit.
So we get called back, weigh in, pee in the cup and do the blood pressure.
The best part about this office is definatly the doctor. You never have to wait once you get back to your room, she comes right away and when she leaves the office and says "I'll be right back." She comes right back! In like less than a minute! Remarkable! I love our doctor, she's young, very nice, listens to our thoughts, answers our questions and is just fun.
Anyway, the doctor comes in and then I get in trouble. She takes my blood pressure again (the nurse took it twice!) and it's ok, but low. It's always low, always has been, for as long as I can remember. Then we go over my weight. Apparently I have only gained one pound in the last 4 weeks. I am coming into 5 months and have only gained a pound since the start. Not good. I eat like crazy, I swear I do. I always have, I just don't gain weight. I've never gained weight. My brothers could never gain weight, still can't. It's just my genes, I can't help it. So now she said I need to check my weight and in two weeks I should have gained at least 2 more pounds. I should gain a pound a week at least before I go back. I think the fact that I am constantly going and on my feet at work all day has played a part too. It's hard to snack at work because we're just so busy right now. But I have been eating! Now Ian is trying to force me to eat double of everything and I feel like I'm going to explode! I'm so incredibly full. Eat, Eat, Eat! Hopefully I can put on the weight. The doctor said that usually they start measuring the belly at this point but I really still don't have anything to measure so we'll wait until next time. :(
We listened to the heart beat, still in the 150's. She found it right away this time which was funny because right before she started she said "Now remember last time it took us a little bit to find it so don't hit me if we don't get it right away" LOL. As soon as she placed the doppler on my belly you could hear it, her face lit up with surprise, it was so funny.
I asked her if she was able to get the pictures from the hospital and she said that she was not, I told her again that they didn't give them to us either and she said "Really?...Hold on one second." and she left the room. She came back in with the ultrasound machine and took some pictures for us and even gave us doubles so Ian could bring them back to work with him. We only took the two pictures but the 3 of us watched the baby for a bit. It wasn't moving around alot like it was when we had the ER ultrasound done, but then you could see the baby swallowing! It was amazing! You could actually see the cheeks move and the baby swallow! It was so funny because Ian and Scott both make this noise when they sleep like they are smacking their lips together and swallowing and that's exactly what it looked like the baby was doing.

Ok I think I've rambled on long enough. We go back again on Jan. 14th. I think she will probably send us over to the ultrasound unit that day to get another one and we should be able to find out the gender! Exciting! I'm still feeling like it's a boy, but everyone else is saying girl. Only time will tell!

Here's the pics... You can see the arm and hand pretty good in the first one, the second one the hand is up by the nose/mouth area, you could see it really good on the sceen but the pics didn't come out as good. You can see the legs too, a little. I can't stop staring at these!


 

Rambling

Feeling kind of achey today :(
Trying to take it easy and just take my time with everything. I wish I had more time at home to catch up on things, but when I am home all I want to do is rest...so that's what I do. Thank God for Ian or I'm sure our house would be really trashed. I look forward to the days of being home with the new baby, I'm SO excited!

Work has been crazy, Ian and I really don't ever see each other, except in passing. We haven't even started xmas shopping. I don't know when we'll find the time since we don't have any days off together. We can't even decide what to get for people. I think it's going to be gift cards this year, lol. I wanted to get a family pic done again for xmas cards but getting Ian, Scott and I all together on the same day is impossible. Not to mention that the boys whine and complain the whole time when we do go.

We will officially not be having anymore puppies :(
Bruno and Patches went under the knife last week and are recovering excellently. They go back on the 14th to get their stitches out. Bruno was his regular self the morning after the surgery, no difference in him! Patches was a little slow at first but has bounced right back only 2 days after surgery.

My next Dr. appt. is on the 14th as well! That's next Thursday. I'm excited to see if the doc got the ultrasound pics from the hospital. If not I'm going to try and convince her to do one in the office while I'm there.

I had a little bit of spotting the other day and couldn't wait to get home and use the doppler. Everything's good. Baby is doing well, no cramping or anything like that to worry about and the spotting was very minimal and went away fast. I guess I'm just growing inside and this might be something I deal with all the way through. Thank god I have the doppler though, it's so comforting!

I think that I felt the baby move the other day but it's still hard to be sure. I guess I won't really know until I can feel the baby move and know that it is truly the baby. I'm excited to start feeling movement regularly. I'm hoping it will happen by Christmas.

Everyone who knows me seems to think it's a girl, but I still feel like it's a boy. Ian thinks it's a girl. I asked him last night if he wanted to wait and not find out and he looked at me like I was crazy, lol. He said NO WAY! I have to know! He told me last week that we need to start setting up the babies room. I told him we had plenty of time before we had to worry about that, to which he replied, "What if it comes early!" LOL This would be too early I told him. I think he's pretty excited.

I think that's about it. No weird cravings or anything. I wish I was eating a little healthier, it's hard at work all week to grab something nutritious for lunch. But I make sure I eat at least 3 meals a day. No weight gain yet, but the belly does look bigger from time to time. I'll try to post another pic soon.

Hello...

Someone here wants to say hi!





HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANA!!

Status report

Still nothing new to report. No changes, the belly doesn't look any bigger, i haven't gained any weight yet. Thanksgiving was great, the food was excellant and we even had left overs from Mom and Dad's that they dropped off to us.
It was a depressing weekend for us because we don't get to spend it as a family. Ian and I had to work and as a result we miss out on our time with Scott. I think we all just miss each other so much right now. Ian and I don't see each other for more than an hour each day. I couldn't tell you when the last time we had a conversation that lasted more than 5 minutes was. It's like we work opposite schedules, If I work late he's asleep when I get home and when he works late I'm a sleep when he gets home. It's like we haven't seen each other in days. We only get one day off a week and it's never the same day for the 2 of us. So that's 3 months with out a day off together. SUCKS!!

No doppler yet. I'm hoping it will come today.

Here's another meme from Stacie's site.

You can only type one word.No explanations.
Yourself: Tired
Your partner: Sick
Your hair: tangled
Your Mother: excited
Your Father: loving
Your Favorite Item: camera
Your dream last night: poop
Your Favorite Drink:milk
Your Dream Car: safe
Your Dream Home: cozy
The Room You Are In: family
Your Ex: gone
Your fear: birth
Where you Want to be in Ten Years? retired
Who you hung out with last night: Scott
What You're Not: relaxed
Muffins: blueberry
One of Your Wish List Items: doppler
Time: ten
The Last Thing You Did:eat
What You Are Wearing: pj's
Your favorite weather: warm
Your Favorite Book: baby
Last thing you ate: banana
Your Life: hectic
Your mood: stress
Your Best Friends: love
What are you thinking about right now: work
Your car: perfect
What are you doing at the moment: typing
Your summer: wonderful
Relationship status: married
What is on your tv: TLC
What is the weather like: freezing
When is the last time you laughed: Thursday

Second Trimester

Well, not much has changed. I'm patiently awaiting our December 14th appointment, it feels like it will take forever to get here.
Nothing much to report, I've been feeling pretty normal. The craving for pizza has subsided a little, although I still love it. Lately I never know what I'm in the mood for. I was craving Captin Crunch cereal for awhile, when I went to the store to buy it I walked out with 3 boxes! Not all Captin Crunch but I just LOVE cereal.
This week I'm craving TURKEY! I wonder why ;) Too bad I won't be getting any :( I have to work on Thanksgiving and then we're going to my in-laws for dinner. My MIL is making cornish hens....I'm sure it will be delicious, but I'd sure love a full belly of turkey with all the fix-in's. I'm going to make a dish of my mother's stuffing recipe, since I don't think Ian or I will survive the day with out it. Now my only hope is that he doesn't eat it all before I get home from work.

My prenatal vitamins make me sick to my stomach so I take them at night before I go to bed. The only problem lately is that I wake up in the middle of the night to go pee and I feel sick. Oh well, I'm loving being prego, although it seems nothing has changed from not being.

We bought a doppler on Ebay. I'm hoping to have it on Friday. If not then we should have it Monday. I can't wait!

Well, that's about it. Like I said nothing really new going on. Here's a belly shot from today.

 

Meet the Doctor

Yesterday was our first appointment to meet our OB. It started out exciting then we waited in the waiting room for an hour! I had to pee so bad but was holding it because I knew that they were going to make me go when they called us back, but after an hour wait I just couldn't hold it anymore. While I'm in the bathroom, I literally flush the toilet and then I can hear the nurse calling my name in the waiting room. Are you kidding me! I knew this was going to happen. I wash my hands and come out and then she says "Oh no you went to the bathroom? We need to get a sample, you should have waited." To which I replied, "Yeah well listen lady, I've been here for an hour waiting to be called back, our appointment was at 10am it's now 11am! Your sample was about to be all over the waiting room floor! I'm sure we probably have another hour ahead of us so I'll be able to go again before we leave." Sure enough I was able to go again before we left, although the doctor did not keep us waiting once we got back to our room.
Our doctor was great. She took her time, answered all our questions and never kept us waiting. We got to hear the heartbeat, which was amazing! She had some trouble finding it at first and I was a little freaked out, she found my pulse and I was even more worried because I knew it was way to slow to be good, if it was the babies. Finally we found my little choo-choo train running strong in there. It was so cute and it really did sound just like a choo-choo train, chugachugachugachugachuga so fast. Once we found the heartbeat and Ian heard it he immediately asked if we could buy a doppler on eBay, lol. I think he was excited. I think that if we had a doppler we would be addicted to listening to the baby everyday. We tried to hear it again last night with a stethoscope, lol. Not going to work.

We won't be getting another ultrasound until around 18 weeks :( But she said that she will try and get us copies of the pictures from the ER so I can't wait for those. If she can't get the copies then she told us that if we're really anxious she could do a bedside ultrasound for us so we might have that done if I can't wait.

I go back on Dec. 14th, I'll be almost 16 weeks by then!! Amazing, I can't wait!

YAY!

I still can't believe it myself. Thank you so much for all your comments. It's so great to know that everyone is so excited for us. Everyday is just a miracle. The first time I had spotting all the way through, never a day with out a little something, so this time it's like everyday I'm in pure joy that nothing's gone wrong.
I'm having some issues with food still. I'm always hungry, but I can't eat a normal amount at one time. I eat a little bit and then I get sick of it so quick, it's weird. I've always loved to eat so this is a bit of a change for me. I'll think I know what I want and then as soon as I have it I take 4 bites and my stomach says "Ok that's enough." What? No it's not. The stomach and I are in a bit of a power struggle.

So I don't know if I wrote this in the last post but we go back to the doctor's on Thursday. This time we actually get to meet the doctor. I'm so excited. We got a list of dates for child birth classes too (they start in March for us) They are at a perfect time so Ian and will both be able to make it after work and meet there. But I don't want to get too far ahead of myself. I'm so afraid of Jinx'ing the whole thing. I've been trying to act like everything is normal, nothing different going on, and every time I think or act pregnant I get paranoid that something will happen.

For now we just keep praying and loving and doing everything we can to keep this baby safe.

11 weeks

 

June 4th

Today was our first appointment. I was so disappointed, we didn't even get to meet the Dr. just talk to the nurse. I thought we would at least get an ultrasound since I'm already 11 weeks. I was excited to have Scott with us so that he could see the ultrasound. He's so excited! I was so nervous about telling him since he's so much older and has been an only child for so long. I wasn't sure how he would react, but he was very excited and happy.

We had a party today for Scott's birthday and told the family. They were all in shock. We decided to have a group photo and Scott said, "Ok, 1,2,3, KARI'S PREGNANT!" Everyone just sort of froze. They weren't sure if he was joking or what.

Cole and Ryleigh are very excited and kept running up to me to tell me that there was a baby in my belly, lol.

Well I'm not sure if we'll be able to get an ultrasound pic again and the ER kept all of the last ones :(

We have an appointment to meet the Dr. next Thursday so I'll keep you posted on what happens next.

4 hours

That we'll never get back.
This morning we went to the ER. The spotting I mentioned in the previous post stopped that same day. However, yesterday morning I awoke to more, redder spotting followed by hysterical crying. Ian and I got ready and tried to call the Dr. but it was too early. So off to the ER we were.
I wasn't in any pain, just terrified and we needed answers.
We got to the ER at 8:45 am. We didn't see a doctor until after 10am and then they did an exam and found no blood! I swear I wasn't crazy, Ian saw it too, it was there. One huge weight lifted, everything seemed to "look" ok. Next it was off to ultrasound. After bloodwork and peeing in the cup. We waited over another hour to get sent to ultrasound.
Finally we get there and there is no Dr. just an ultrasound tech, who was very nice and tried to be as helpful as possible, but he wasn't allowed to tell us anything, because the Dr. had to make the determinations. He could only take the pictures.

Well, we got to see the baby, hear the heart beat, and see the baby moving. It was amazing! I wish I could have seen better, as the screen was on the side of me so the angle was hard to see. I know at one point I saw and arm and hand with fingers, like the baby was waving to say "I'm ok Mom and Dad, don't worry!" At that moment I felt a huge sigh of relief, but I couldn't shake the fact that we still had to wait to hear what the Dr. had to say.
After the ultrasound it was back down to the ER where we waited for well over ANOTHER HOUR! I literally passed out on the exam table and Ian fell asleep in the corner sitting on the floor. It was awful and we were both tired and STARVING!
We finally get the Dr. back in and he said that everything looked great and my HGC levels were very good.

We finally left the ER sometime after 1:30 pm.

I go to the OB next Friday, hopefully we'll get some ultrasound pics that we can keep and share. The hospital kept all the ones from the ER. :(
I hope I can get some more answers and more relief.

Spotting has started

And my breathing has stopped!

I woke up at 1:30am and went to the bathroom and discovered some pink spotting, very little. Thinking I must be dreaming or at least just seeing things I tried to go back to bed and not worry (lol, not worry, yeah right!)
When I got up for the day there was more. Holding back the tears I decided to remain positive and go on with getting ready for the day. There is no cramping so it can't be happening, right?

I read in one of my books that you can experience pink or brownish spotting due to the uterus stretching and not to worry unless it is accompanied by cramping or you see bright red.

As the day went on there was less and less and it turned to more of an orange'ish. Not sure what that means.

Needless to say I am on edge and scarred to death. Please God don't let this happen again! I've been praying all day!

Food

YUCK!
I've been feeling nauseous for the last few weeks, but this week has been terrible! Before, I could just eat a little something and it would subside. This week I don't want to eat. Everything makes me want to vomit. I crave something and then the moment it touches my taste buds my stomach turns. I almost never feel full.
Those who know me, know that I LOVE to eat, so this nausea hasn't exactly slowed me down, but I have wasted a bit of food. Ian's always there to pick up the slack, lol. So for now I eat a little bit of this and a little bit of that, but not a whole lot of one thing. Not too bad.
I'm certainly not complaining, just recording my events. I know that the fact that I feel this way should be a little reassurance that everything is going well inside. Although, I still can't help but be fearful. It still doesn't feel completely real. So weird! I'm hoping that seeing an ultrasound that proves the baby is ok will help it all sink in for me. Apparently the 3 pregnancy tests just aren't enough, lol.

Welcome to 9 weeks!!!

It's official!

Today I went in for my pee test. I'm pregnant! Surprise, surprise, lol. It took about half an hour to get all my info into the computer and then I just pee'd in the cup and they came back with a slip and said "It's positive, give this to the girl at the desk."
That's it! No questions, no advice, no anything. I didn't even get to go into an office or exam room, she told me in the hallway by the waiting room. Kind of odd if you ask me.
Anyway, I gave my slip to the girl and I go back on Nov. 10th for my first appointment. That's Ian's birthday! I hope we get an ultrasound that day although I'm not so sure we will. All they told me was that the appointment will take about an hour that day. I should be 11 weeks by then so I'm hoping we can get it done. What a great birthday present that would be!

I'm thinking of inviting everyone over for Scott's birthday on Saturday (the 11th) and telling them all. But, I am afraid that it will take away from Scott's day. Being an only child, he likes to be the center of attention and his birthday is the one day that is dedicated just for him so I don't want everyone to be excited and talking about the baby and me and Ian and everything else when we should all be focused on celebrating his birthday and not my pregnancy. Although, I'm sure the presents he'll get would help that too.

I guess for now we'll just wait and see what happens, but I defiantly plan on telling Scott Friday (the 10th) after our appointment. Ian and I have been dying to tell him, but he knew first with the last pregnancy and then we had to tell him that it was gone. I just don't want to put him through it if something does go wrong. The older he gets the more questions he'll have and it's just not something that a 12 year old should have to worry about or deal with.

That's it for today. I can't wait for Nov. 10th!!!

Starting 8 weeks!

This is the beginning of week 8. The due date, going by the LMP should be June 1st.

This week while I still have some subconscious lingering of doubt I've actually began to truly get excited. I don't totally expect to see spotting everytime I use the bathroom, but instead I am just so excited that I am pregnant and each time I go I am reassured that I'm still prego.

I feel extremely guilty because I haven't been able to go to the doctor yet because of changing my insurance companies. I should be going on Wednesday since that's my only weekday off for the next 2 weeks. I can't wait to schedule the first ultrasound. I just need to see it to really believe it. I almost feel like buying another tests...just to check. Why is it so hard to believe?

Ian has been incredible! The first night he came home from work with pickles and ice cream. Then just the other night he brought me home a dozen (pink) roses. I think he's bought a different kind of ice cream every other night since we found out. He's trying to fatten me up. I'm trying to eat healthy. It's so hard to eat healthy at work and not spend a fortune. With the puppies and everything else there just isn't time to make a lunch to bring every morning. To get good food out on a lunch break I have to spend nearly $10. That's $50 a week not to mention the $80 in gas and over $20 in tolls right now. Lately I've just been doing the Subway veggie delight. I love Subway and it's cheap but your not supposed to eat lunch meat when prego, so I'm stuck with the veggie delight or cooked subs, which aren't their healthiest variety. I love salads but not McDonald's or Wendy's salads. I think it mostly has to do with the dressing though. Maybe I'll buy my own dressing and try that with the fast food salads to make them better.

Ok, I'm really just endlessly rambling right now so it's time to go...bubye.

Panic and doubt

I've spent the entire week expecting to get my period. I must go to the bathroom 50 times a day, each time certain that I will see blood, and each time...nothing. It's so hard for me to believe this, I guess it's because I want it so badly.
In my first pregnancy it was rare to have one day with no spotting. This time I have everyday with no spotting. It's just unbelieveable. When will I stop doubting my body?

Ok, maybe it is real.

I'm still not sure that I'm 100% convinced. So I insisted on testing again to make sure that the first one wasn't just a fluke. I went to Wal*mart and bought the cheapest test they had. This is what we got...
I guess it's true. I'm trying so hard not to panic.

Could this be true?

I'm still not sure.

Heart. Stopping. Is it true?

Lmp was August 25th. On September 20th I started light spotting and thought Aunt Flo was coming a little early (not completely unusual). 3 days of very light spotting, waiting for AF to start. Day for there's nearly nothing? What is going on? Day 5 absolutly nothing! What?!

Ian says "Test"
Me: "Um, what?"
Ian: "Pee on the stick!"
Me: "No way."

Then I went upstairs and....


Now I'm a nervous wreck. Not sure I did the right thing. I'm so nervous, it's almost like I'd rather not know, in case something goes wrong. The prayers and caution have officailly started.